Time Fly's

It's crazy to believe that it's been 10 days since I last wrote. So much has gone on that it would be pretty much impossible to cover it all.

I've been having a great time recently and haven't had too many conflicts. There are a couple of things that plague my thoughts, but not much.

B3 issues are still prevalent, and getting worse again, but I think I can manage them. He wants to cuddle when I visit, and I told him yes. He mentioned wanting to do more, but I'm not sure on that one yet. I will get drunk with him, I will go to a party, and I will cuddle. I think I'm becoming more confident in myself, I only hope that I don't get hurt. I'm going to make him promise to still talk to me afterwards, because him not talking to me will drive me nuts. I also feel like I might be getting too clingy recently and I don't want that to happen.

In other news, I now have a Big in DG and a twin :) I'm very excited and tonight we had a great pirate themed hang out time. Our family is called the nauticals so we tend to do a lot of things that concern pirates. I'm really happy with the family I have been given, even though it may be small. We're actually the smallest family in the dorm right now. We only have 5 members, two sets of twins, and my current Big Big. I think I'm going to have so much fun.

Another big thing that's been on my mind the last couple of days would be the fact that my dad wants me to consider engineering as a major. My school does not offer it, so if I looked into it I would have to transfer schools. If I transferred schools it would be to WSU, which is where B3 goes. I mentioned this to him because I wanted to know if he would think it would be awkward and his response was that he'd love it. In fact he mentioned that he'd want to get back together if I moved there. I'm so conflicted. In no way whatsoever do I want to choose to go there simply because of him. That is so ridiculous and I won't let myself be pulled into an action like that.

The last big thing recently that I have been doing is trying to lose weight. I've been practicing for serenades recently with my other new members and so that has been getting me more active, but in addition to that I'm also trying to watch what I eat. When I went to the doctor last week I realized that I've gained 20lbs since starting school, and I seriously need to lose them again. I do not want to weight 190lbs. I'd much prefer to be the 170 that I was at the beginning of the year. I go back to the doctor in two weeks, and I'm trying to lose as much weight as possible by then. I hope I lose at least 5lbs. I also want to be thinner for when I visit WSU and see B3 again. Apparently he weighs 165lbs now, and he's 8 inches taller than me. I'll feel very strange next to him which I don't like at all. We'll see how everything works out.

Anyway, it's bed time. I'll ttyl!