The Beginning

So my friends have been using this blog for quite some time, but I have yet to try it out. Today when I was incredibly bored and frustrated so I figured it would be a perfect time to start. I like this blogging idea because it can allow me to write my feelings down in a place that seems semi-public, while still being private about who I'm talking about.

A real diary seems to be pointless to me because I'd always forget it somewhere or simply become annoyed at the fact that I have to hand write every word I want to say. On this blogger I can say as much as I want to without the tedious effort of handwriting anything. I also like the idea that completely anonymous people can read about my life and what I think without me actually having an impact on their life.

I love gossip, and yet I hate it at the same time. It's one of the things that I absolutely need to stop myself from doing because it only seems to cause more problems in the world. I figure I can gossip on the internet, without a single person actually knowing who I'm talking about. I can completely change people's names so that every single person I talk about can remain anonymous.

Recently I've had a lot of problems because of how much I like to gossip. I feel like I'm losing the trust of my friends, and trust is one of the things I value most. If I say one thing to one friend, then it feels like a betrayal to another. Sometimes I step in and say what I feel needs to be said, but recently that has come back to haunt me.

Honestly, I'm just hoping that this blogger becomes an outlet for me and allowed me to stay away from drama in my life. In the process maybe my life story will become interesting for other people, but I doubt it. Everyone has their own drama to deal with, they don't want to hear about mine.