The Drama Saga Continues

Sometimes I feel that this blog is more of a way to rant about my various drama rather than an actual diary. It helps though.

So, as the title implies, I have more drama in my life. Kitten has become more intolerable and Wits (formally known as P1) has become more annoying. It's strange, but right now I feel as if my closest friend was someone who I never thought I'd be able to be friends again with. When I told Draco (formerly known as P2) that this was the case right now he was shocked. He told me I needed to talk to Wits, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I feel that if Wits really wants to be my friend and care about what happens in my life that he would ask about it, but he doesn't. I don't think I'm ever going to volunteer information to him anymore because I just get the feeling that it annoys him. Draco was describing to my roommate Nerdy, that in the last two months he's watched a spectacular friendship go up in smoke and it really bothers him. Kitten, Wits, and I used to be so close but now we can hardly have a conversation (even between just two of us) without something bad happening. I've tried to escape this by joining a sorority, but that only seems to have made Kitten's drama worse.

Another thing that bothers me is actually hanging out at the sorority. It feels like I'm invading a lot of the time, so I don't go there very much. I want to be able to hang out and have fun there, but I just feel like an outsider right now, and I hardly know anyone's names. When I told B3 about my insecurities on this matter he told me that he felt the same way when he first joined. He fixed that problem by hanging out there as much as possible, and just learning to balance his away friends with his frat brothers. I think I'm going to try that,  and I already made a step towards doing so by asking the new members (like me) to hang out on Sunday. I think we've decided that we're going to go shopping after we eat brunch with all of our other sisters. B3 also helped me get over my conflicts with Kitten and DG. He told me that if she doesn't respect my choice to go there then I should just ignore her. I can hang out with her on occasion, but I shouldn't listen to her otherwise. I feel guilty doing this, but so many people have told me to do it that I really do think its the right thing to do.

I love each and every one of my friends, but I need to find a place where I belong once again and right now I don't have it.

Another additional issues with today is the fact that Kitten found out that Wits is in a new relationship and that I knew it was going to happen for the last two weeks and I didn't tell her. She's also upset that I snapped at her last night (because she woke me up when I was dead tired), and today she didn't even wait to go to class with me. When I got to class she sat on the other side of Javelin and made sure I couldn't sit next to her. At lunch is when she found out about Wits and his new girl friend, and after that is when issues happened.

After lunch I ranted a little bit to Draco and Nerdy, and that's when Draco told me I needed to talk to Wits. After Wits and Draco came back from spanish, Wits decided to ask me to play pool and to show me what Kitten had said to him in a message earlier. The pool game was just awkward because I'm upset with him and I don't really know how to broach the subject with him. I don't want to bother him, and I don't want the only thing we ever talk about be Kitten. I want to talk about stuff between the two of us, or even play a fun game together, but we never do that anymore and he shows no interest in it.

I have a couple of other new friends that are fun to hang out with, but I'm still upset at the explosion that's occurred from Kitten and Wits failed relationship.

What I don't get is that Wits knew I was upset, and he didn't even ask me why. All he asked was whether there was anything else I wanted to talk about with him, which I don't consider to be asking about me but asking about whether I have a problem with him. I already told him why I'm upset with him, and for a day it changed, but after that he went back to being disinterested.

Oh well, I guess I'll just stick it out for the rest of this weekend and then after that spend as much time as possible at DG and not around people here.