An Incredible Few Days

So I had meant to write every day, but the pace of my day seems to have sped up. I suddenly have a lot more things to do and I rather like it.

In addition to the classes I am taking (which I'm completely stoked for) I have also decided to rush this week. When I went to the informational session on Monday I was a little bit dubious at first, but the more the rho gammas (the leader girls) talked the more I liked the idea of a Sorority. By the end of the session I had decided that I really wanted to pledge to one of them.

After that I decided to start going around and asking which sorority is the best one to join. Right now I have decided that I want to be in Delta Gamma and if that doesn't work out I'll be fine with Pi Beta Phi. Alpha Kai on the other hand I would refuse to go into. It has a really bad reputation at every school as being super slutty. At this school in particular they have a reputation for partying as hard as they can. I don't think that I'd belong in a house like that, but the Delta Gammas are the complete opposite. They are considered to be smart and kind. They also have the nicest house (from what I've seen thus far, the tours don't start until Thursday) but they cost the most money. Overall though I haven't heard anything about Pi Beta Phi, neither good nor bad. I've just heard that they are lesser known and are "ok".

I like the idea of a sisterhood of people that no matter what will be there for you. In the informational session one of the girls talked about how one of her sisters had lost her house in a fire, and the whole alumni had rallied around her to help restore everything she had lost. I want that kind of connection with a group of people, and right now, though I love my friends here, I don't think I have that. I also like that they encourage you to step out of your boundaries and join as many groups as you can. I think that joining a sorority will be good for me.

Last night I went to the sorority "greet and meet" where you go and talk to a bunch of girls from the various houses. The first house I went to was Pi Beta Phi and they were really nice. I only talked to two girls at the time, but at the end of the night I went back and talked to a couple more. After I talked to the two girls from Pi Beta Phi I moved on to the Delta Gamma table. At that table I swear I think I talked to every single girl. I spent at least an hour and a half there talking to the different girls. I met one girl that was extremely happy and energetic. She was a math major and so was excited to hear that I was interested in math as well. Some of the other girls in the group were also very interesting. One girl really liked Dexter and so was pretty passionate about it, and another one seemed like she was the motherly type and liked to make sure that every rush girl that headed over there got to talk to one of the girls. After a while I decided to check out Alpha Pi and decide for myself what I thought of it. At first they seemed pretty interesting, but the moment when they really started getting animated was when they started talking about boys and partying. I think those girls are nice, but I still don't think I belong with them. Each sorority though definitely had a wide variety of people in them.

Tonight I go back to do another meet and greet with other people from the same houses. They say you only have to go to one, but I want to go just to be sure that everyone knows me. I really want to get a bid into Delta Gamma.

In addition to the sorority stuff happening to me in the last couple of days I've had a bit of a surprise from many people. The first of which would be Drama. I talked to her again a couple nights ago and she really does seem like she's changed. She still likes to do some wild stuff, but she seems like she's getting better. I don't think I'll ever be as accepting with her as I was before, but I don't want to just give up being friends with her.

The second big thing that happened would be a drunk conversation with B3 two nights ago. Around 3 am he ended the conversation with this:

B3: ou are not entertaining me enough
B3: i am going to go to bed
B3: just know that i regret breaking up with you like every day
Me: regretting it doesn't take it back...
Me: good night
Me: and I could be entertaining and tell you some stuff, but I don't exactly want to do that because of our previous relationship
Me: at least not yet
B3: ok
B3: bye
B3: i am crying
B3: idk why
Me: I'm sorry
Me: I'm crying too
Me: but I know why
Me: you're probably just crying because you're drunk
Me: good night


What he said in that little segment shocked me. I really didn't know how to handle it so I tried to talk to him the next day (yesterday) at first I told him he was stupid for saying that and he informed me that he was trying to block the conversation out of his mind. I couldn't get what he said out of my mind for the rest of the day though so I decided to talk to him once again and ask him why exactly he regretted breaking up with me. When he said it was mostly because he misses having an intimate relationship with someone that isn't retarded it made it easier for me to cope with what he said. For some reason knowing that he feels that way makes it easier for me to forget about him. I like that he feels the same way I do about having a relationship right now, and even though it was a mistake for him to say it, I think it's going to work out for the best.


The third thing that's happened in the last couple of days would be that P3 actually spoke to me and was nice about it. It was only a brief conversation, but at least he didn't ignore me.


The fourth thing that happened is not as good as everything else. For a while I had thought that P1 was ignoring me. When I mentioned it to him yesterday he got super defensive and wanted to know why. When I tried to explain it the conversation just got worse so I just told him that I was going to leave and do homework.


Later that night I decided to get back online and send him a message explaining everything that had happened. When he responded to the message I discovered that my friend Kitten had tried to be protective of me and talk to him too. That ended up going super badly (like it always does) and now P1 was self destructive again. Right now I have to deal with him, and Kitten, and now another guy, Javelin.


I want that drama to end, but I'm thankful for everything else going right.