The Happy Times Continue

Sometimes it takes a great couple of days, or some lousy things to happen to you for you to really realize just how much the people in your life care for you. I am so incredibly thankful to all of my friends and my family. I'm happy with almost everything that's going on in my life and it is a very nice change from what it was for the last 8 months before that.

The drama is finally at a minimum and I am very thankful for that. My friend Kitten seems to have accepted that I'm leaving, but just because I'm leaving doesn't mean I'll never hang out with her anymore. P1 (who I don't have a crush on so we'll call him Wits) and I have been having good conversations recently and it seems to understand why I got upset before and wants to change that. He actually has found a new girl to dote on and so he's happy once again and his life is getting stable once again. Javelin never again brought up our argument and for that I'm thankful, and last night we had a really heart felt conversation where we ended up helping each other out a lot.

My friendship relationship with B3 seems to have had a little bit of a hiccup last night, but I know it'll right itself. He finally trusts me completely again and is treating me like a close friend, which can be somewhat hazardous as he found out last night. He was talking about some girls that he's liked and about ones that he's hit on in the past and it bothered me even though I know it shouldn't. When he asked me why I was suddenly less responsive I decided to tell him the truth and let him know that I was annoyed. After that the conversation just went down hill because he thought I was pissed and I was trying to explain to him that I wasn't. It didn't help that he made a really bad and time inappropriate joke about him walking a girl back to her house. I think I'll talk to him again tonight though and settle the argument we had yesterday.

One thing that I am incredibly happy about as well is the fact that I have a job interview tomorrow! Its for a clerk position at the local law school and it's only 4 hours a week. I think it's perfect because it fits into my schedule nicely, and it isn't too trying. It'll be nice to have a steady income if I can get the job. I don't know that I will get the job yet though because of my prior experience, but I have high hopes.

I am also happy that I am now a new member to Delta Gamma! I had my first ceremony on Monday night, and my first meeting on Sunday night. Tonight I'm going back to the house to have dinner with my Anchor sister and to talk about everything that's happened thus far. I like it a lot and I can't wait to see where it's going to take me. I want to get to know the girls in the sorority better, but right now it seems a little bit awkward. A lot of them know my name, but it feels like to me that I know none of their names even though I've probably been introduced to them all at least two times. I think that with more time spent with them in the house that it'll grow less awkward though and I'll soon learn all of their names.

My classes have also been going really well. I'm actually excited for all of my classes because they are all really fun this semester, and they all seem to be interconnected. Alice in Wonderland (a book I had to read for Children's Classics) has french in it, poetry in it, and logical statements which connect perfectly with french, creative writing, and foundations in mathematics respectively. As I was reading that book I go so excited to find all of the connections that I even brought the book in to show all of my teachers. Creative writing is also a fun class where we're currently working on poetry. My first poem I wrote about the Teddy Bear that B3 gave me, and I actually like it quite a bit. When I brought it in to class today everyone analyzed it and told me stuff I should change about it, and I'd have to agree with them. I think it's going to make for a very cute poem eventually, but the version I have now is:

Teddy

He has two ears perched upon his head,
Two small onyx eyes with tiny white dots,
One soft large nose as opaque as the eyes,
A thin smile, almost imperceptible, just below the nose.

As he sits next to the I Spy book, his head nearly reaches the top,
His body easily fits from the spine to the opening,
His fluff extends out in front of him.
Each of his limbs barely breach his overwhelming stuffing.

Initially he is ice, but as he is held a fire grows,
The tighter he is squeezed the smaller he becomes,
If he is crushed enough, his heart starts to beat,
Showing his love for me.

My french class is also very interesting because of my animated teacher that likes to be dramatic about everything. I think I'm a bit behind though because of my previous experiences in french, so it's going to take a some effort to get back up to the level of everyone else.

Foundations in Mathematics is going to be my most challenging class this semester. It is incredibly difficult already, and my professor says that this is nothing compared to what it's going to be soon. I'm really worried, but I'm going to try my hardest to succeed in the class. It's really interesting and thought provoking though so it won't be too difficult to get myself to wanting to study for it.

The last class I have is Children's Classics, and I am very excited about that class. The teacher is a bit dull, but the reading we have to do for it is awesome. I love all of the books we have to read, and even though we have to read a lot every night I know I can handle it. I'm only worried about the essays, but I only have to do 4 of them total for the entire semester so I'm ok with that.

So that's everything about my classes, but I have to say there is one thing that's been bothering me recently and that's my lack of sleep. I've been having really restless nights where I dream a lot of bizarre dreams and it's starting to get to me. I've been really tired because I'm on my period right now, and not getting sleep just makes it worse. I also don't like that the dreams I've been having relate so strongly to the small things that I want right now that I know I can't have. Like being able to tell my mom that she bothers me when she isn't in town when I go to school or come home. That it feels like she honestly doesn't love me anymore because I've moved out. Another thing would be that in all of my dreams I have a boyfriend. I get to cuddle with him and do everything else and it just makes me want one more in real life. It also doesn't help that the boy in my dreams sometimes is B3, especially since I'm trying hard to get over him. The third thing I dreamed about was actually about getting more sleep. I got so frustrated in one of my dreams about my inability to sleep that I stole an IV with the stuff in it that makes people pass out (like the stuff they gave me when I had my wisdom teeth pulled) and I put it in my arm to sleep. Sadly right at the moment I got it in my arm a guy barged into the room (the one that would later become my boyfriend) and took it out of my arm and kissed me. My dreams have been very strange, and I just want a good nights sleep.

So that's basically everything that's happened in the last week. I guess I write the next time I get the time to do so. Hopefully it'll be sooner than this one was.